Sad Day Good Friend Gone

Today is a sad day and yet a day of release and some joy. Prince a long time friend and member of our family is now sleeping with the animal angels and his mom Friskie and brother Tiger. He was almost 16 years old and his kidneys finally gave out. My husband and my son said their goodbyes last night and I took him to the vet this morning at 8:00am and he confirmed what I knew and called my son to just let him know that to try to treat Mr. Prince with IVs and drugs would only prolong the pain and not be the best or kindest way to have him live. Wyatt knew this but it was easier to handle coming from a doctor and I do not fault him for needing that assurance from a professional. I said my goodbyes at the vet and kissed him and said goodnight to him and then let him go. We are having his ashes put in an oak container and will put him on the mantle next to his mom and his brother. There is one more left of my feline family, Rainbow who is also 16 but doing fine now that she is on medication for her thyroid. We will see how much more quality time she has but we know her time will come and when it does she too will sit with her brothers and her mom.
This loss has made me relive memories of my childhood, pets I had, experiences with my friends and family and losses. I miss my Dad my biggest loss. I received an email from my dearest and longest friend today, it was a link to what is now the local newspaper only available by elink, the hard copy version is no longer in business it closed after almost 100 years last month. Thanks to her thoughtfulness I am now going to be getting the e-link newspaper on a regular basis and have met someone else from my hometown who also knows by dear friend. It is still amazing to me how when you least expect it and need it most the power provide us with kindness, friendship and love. I have found so much of that support from the twitter friends I now have and even though the chances of me ever really meeting them in the flesh are slim I will always keep them in my heart and my memories. They have given me joy, support and most of all love in it's purest form with no judgement, strings or payback expected. Thank you all my friends.
I sit now in my new chair, one that actually fits me after having one big enough for a 400 pound man, and type these feelings to relieve my pain and to share with those who care for me. I am trying to stay busy but am drained from the emotion of this morning and so have to do what I can in spurts of energy. I am fighting off a migraine since the pressure outside is intense as well as the clouds and the humidity. Fitting weather to match my inner feelings. The sun is trying to stay out of the clouds and the temperature is rising, it is noon and already 103*, supposed to be up to 112* by end of the day. Heat warnings are out for the entire southern Nevada and Mojave area. If it weren't for the humidity, the heat would be fine, this is after all the desert and should be hotter than most places. I love the desert and the heat. I smile at that thought since for the last few days of his glorious life, Mr. Prince would stay outside, not willing to come in where it was cool, and sleep under my butterfly vine in the back yard. The dirt was moist from morning watering and there was lots of shade and I think the smell of those fragrant flowers soothed him. He will be with many flowers now happy chasing birds and with no pain from anything. I miss him and his constant meowing which never bothered me but bothered annoyed others in the household. His way of saying hey I am here give me more attention. (smile)
My son can't decide what to do with himself today. He isn't going to work and I am not up to driving him to far away stores to window shop. No money to spend and can't deal with seeing things I might want or need and not being able to buy them. I do have to go get dog and cat food today hopefully if it has been delivered to the pet store/groomer. I will call in a while to make sure it is there. Son is now taking a shower I am hoping he decides to go to work but not getting hopes up since he feels his mood would not be good for customers and job attitude for sales at work. Better to stay home but I feel differently, just me, keeping busy and mind off feelings is how I deal better with negative feelings.
Well it is now 5:30pm and dinner is done except for the clean up. I am feeling better and I have also had some very precious friends send me condolences and positive vibrations to help me through this day of sadness. I am now going to finally post this to my page after a day long entry of feelings and memories and just plain dumping. Tomorrow will be a better day, I am having lunch with a lovely lady and her son, someone I have only known a short time here in Las Vegas but who is very dear and who I am pleased to call a friend. Time marches on and the memories flow at will if we let them good or bad we must embrace them even if they brings tears not smiles. They are a part of who we are and who we may still become.