Onward and Upward Lessons Learned Are Not Free

A few months ago, actually it has been 5 months now, I became involved with what I thought was a way to share my life experiences my energy (which since I was not working I had lots of) my desire to help others and maybe do some good in the world. I spent hours each day working with others from around the world people I had met on twitter. It was a small group which over time became even smaller. It all started out really good with all of us sharing ideas, helping each other through hard and sad times, laughing about things that normally would make people cry. There were hours of discussions done in chat rooms and emails and even in twitter about how to spread the word of our goals to help people who are less fortunate than we were.
Well that is all done now. I found that although the flesh was willing the soul was going to be denied. It is amazing to me that once some people decide to put themselves in a position of power and others agree to that position, they change. It shouldn’t surprise me; I am not naive when it comes to the power of ego. I have experienced this first hand as a child, teen and adult. It is a hard lesson to learn. I will no doubt go through this experience again more times before the end but if we don't try we don't learn and learning is what keeps us growing.
It is funny in a way that I still look for emails which were coming constantly with no real solid information just more back patting. After several emails yesterday about my decision and how I needed to explain why and who and oh you can’t do that with my response being mostly “Enough Said” I thought it had finally stopped. Then today one more email with more to come at the end I replied please send no more I got the reply that it was a mistake. Such an understatement since I know feel the entire endeavor was a mistake. It did bring me into contact with some very real and solid people who are not afraid to accept help and direction and share the responsibility of either mistakes or glory. I thank them for that. In closing I will say onward and upward, there is more good to come.
Take care and be safe.