Onward and Upward Lessons Learned Are Not Free

A few months ago, actually it has been 5 months now, I became involved with what I thought was a way to share my life experiences my energy (which since I was not working I had lots of) my desire to help others and maybe do some good in the world. I spent hours each day working with others from around the world people I had met on twitter. It was a small group which over time became even smaller. It all started out really good with all of us sharing ideas, helping each other through hard and sad times, laughing about things that normally would make people cry. There were hours of discussions done in chat rooms and emails and even in twitter about how to spread the word of our goals to help people who are less fortunate than we were.
Well that is all done now. I found that although the flesh was willing the soul was going to be denied. It is amazing to me that once some people decide to put themselves in a position of power and others agree to that position, they change. It shouldn’t surprise me; I am not naive when it comes to the power of ego. I have experienced this first hand as a child, teen and adult. It is a hard lesson to learn. I will no doubt go through this experience again more times before the end but if we don't try we don't learn and learning is what keeps us growing.
It is funny in a way that I still look for emails which were coming constantly with no real solid information just more back patting. After several emails yesterday about my decision and how I needed to explain why and who and oh you can’t do that with my response being mostly “Enough Said” I thought it had finally stopped. Then today one more email with more to come at the end I replied please send no more I got the reply that it was a mistake. Such an understatement since I know feel the entire endeavor was a mistake. It did bring me into contact with some very real and solid people who are not afraid to accept help and direction and share the responsibility of either mistakes or glory. I thank them for that. In closing I will say onward and upward, there is more good to come.
Take care and be safe.

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My Egyptian Zodiac Sign

SATIS Peace-loving and tolerant, receptive to wealth, analytical and science-minded, tender towards those who are not ignorant, can sometimes be angry. Colors: male: deep red, female: deep blue Compatible Signs: Amon-Ra, Set Dates: Jan 1 - Jan 7, Jun 19 - Jun 28, Sep 1 - Sep 7, Nov 18 - Nov 26 Role: Goddess who protected the sources of the Nile and goddess of the cataract at the border of Egypt and Nubia Appearance: A woman wearing the white crown of Upper Egypt with antelope horns on the sides. Sacred animal: antelope What is Your Egyptian Zodiac Sign? Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock's Quizzles and Quandaries

Sad Day Good Friend Gone

Today is a sad day and yet a day of release and some joy. Prince a long time friend and member of our family is now sleeping with the animal angels and his mom Friskie and brother Tiger. He was almost 16 years old and his kidneys finally gave out. My husband and my son said their goodbyes last night and I took him to the vet this morning at 8:00am and he confirmed what I knew and called my son to just let him know that to try to treat Mr. Prince with IVs and drugs would only prolong the pain and not be the best or kindest way to have him live. Wyatt knew this but it was easier to handle coming from a doctor and I do not fault him for needing that assurance from a professional. I said my goodbyes at the vet and kissed him and said goodnight to him and then let him go. We are having his ashes put in an oak container and will put him on the mantle next to his mom and his brother. There is one more left of my feline family, Rainbow who is also 16 but doing fine now that she is on medication for her thyroid. We will see how much more quality time she has but we know her time will come and when it does she too will sit with her brothers and her mom.
This loss has made me relive memories of my childhood, pets I had, experiences with my friends and family and losses. I miss my Dad my biggest loss. I received an email from my dearest and longest friend today, it was a link to what is now the local newspaper only available by elink, the hard copy version is no longer in business it closed after almost 100 years last month. Thanks to her thoughtfulness I am now going to be getting the e-link newspaper on a regular basis and have met someone else from my hometown who also knows by dear friend. It is still amazing to me how when you least expect it and need it most the power provide us with kindness, friendship and love. I have found so much of that support from the twitter friends I now have and even though the chances of me ever really meeting them in the flesh are slim I will always keep them in my heart and my memories. They have given me joy, support and most of all love in it's purest form with no judgement, strings or payback expected. Thank you all my friends.
I sit now in my new chair, one that actually fits me after having one big enough for a 400 pound man, and type these feelings to relieve my pain and to share with those who care for me. I am trying to stay busy but am drained from the emotion of this morning and so have to do what I can in spurts of energy. I am fighting off a migraine since the pressure outside is intense as well as the clouds and the humidity. Fitting weather to match my inner feelings. The sun is trying to stay out of the clouds and the temperature is rising, it is noon and already 103*, supposed to be up to 112* by end of the day. Heat warnings are out for the entire southern Nevada and Mojave area. If it weren't for the humidity, the heat would be fine, this is after all the desert and should be hotter than most places. I love the desert and the heat. I smile at that thought since for the last few days of his glorious life, Mr. Prince would stay outside, not willing to come in where it was cool, and sleep under my butterfly vine in the back yard. The dirt was moist from morning watering and there was lots of shade and I think the smell of those fragrant flowers soothed him. He will be with many flowers now happy chasing birds and with no pain from anything. I miss him and his constant meowing which never bothered me but bothered annoyed others in the household. His way of saying hey I am here give me more attention. (smile)
My son can't decide what to do with himself today. He isn't going to work and I am not up to driving him to far away stores to window shop. No money to spend and can't deal with seeing things I might want or need and not being able to buy them. I do have to go get dog and cat food today hopefully if it has been delivered to the pet store/groomer. I will call in a while to make sure it is there. Son is now taking a shower I am hoping he decides to go to work but not getting hopes up since he feels his mood would not be good for customers and job attitude for sales at work. Better to stay home but I feel differently, just me, keeping busy and mind off feelings is how I deal better with negative feelings.
Well it is now 5:30pm and dinner is done except for the clean up. I am feeling better and I have also had some very precious friends send me condolences and positive vibrations to help me through this day of sadness. I am now going to finally post this to my page after a day long entry of feelings and memories and just plain dumping. Tomorrow will be a better day, I am having lunch with a lovely lady and her son, someone I have only known a short time here in Las Vegas but who is very dear and who I am pleased to call a friend. Time marches on and the memories flow at will if we let them good or bad we must embrace them even if they brings tears not smiles. They are a part of who we are and who we may still become.

My Life With Migraines

My name is Darlene Blair, I am 57 years old and I have had migraines since I was 13 years old. The following is the history of my life with migraines. There maybe gaps in the timeline due to the fact that I am trying to tell 45 years of experiences because of the length of time I am trying to remember but believe that the information I am giving is true and correct, even though some of it may seem unbelievable.

When I started having migraines as a teen the term migraine was not a recognized medical term but migraines were considered to be mostly an exaggeration of just a normal headache. This was 1964, and the only subscribed remedy from doctors was to take an over the counter pain reliever. This consisted of either aspirin, bufferin or Excedrin. My choice was aspirin and due to school rules I was forced to take them without water. Needless to say I was taking them by the handfuls on most days when the headache was a 10+ in severity. The result of this treatment was the aspirin burned my stomach and eliminated most or all of my natural digestive enzymes used to digest food. For the next 10 years that was my only treatment and I was forced to live in a world where there were days of being restricted to bed.

In the mid 1970’s, I found a doctor who diagnosed me with migraine headaches. He prescribed cafergot and I thought I had finally found relief. Not the case, since this drug was not only extremely addictive but overtime I built up a resistance to it. One day in 1979 I awoke with one of my worst headaches and started to take the cafergot. By mid day, I realized I had taken over 12 of them, and fell asleep. Upon awakening, I looked up the drug in a medical book and found that each pill equaled drinking a full pot of coffee. That meant I had drank 12 pots of coffee and fallen asleep. Needless to say that scared me beyond belief. I immediately through the rest of my prescription away and thought that I had lost all hope of help and relief.

A few months later, a woman I knew told me she also had migraines and that she was seeing a chiropractor who had helped her tremendously. I immediately called and made an appointment to see him. I had never gone to a chiropractor before and thought it could not hurt. This doctor was a miracle worker and one of a kind. He took a full x-ray of my body, had me fill out a medical and physical history that consisted of approximately 20 pages and then we had an hour consultation. At the end of the consultation he informed me that I had a condition called scoliosis and that was part of the cause of my migraines. The other cause was my diet. He put me on a detox program consisting of herbs and supplements that he had helped develop and informed me that I had to stop eating all foods containing any sulfates, nitrates and foods that were processed or had preservatives in it. The detox program lasted for 6 weeks and when I returned I was given another herbal program to take on a daily basis. The other part of his treatment was a form of acupressure. He used a small metal air type hand tool that he would place behind my left ear and on my left hip. He would then gently “punch” me there and then run his fingers lightly down my spine. For the first 2 months, I visited him 2 times a week and then 1 time a week for the next 3 months. After that I only visited him to get refills on my supplements and when I needed an adjustment. It was a MIRACLE. Because of Dr. Paul, I only had a migraine 3 or 4 times in the next 4 years. Those were caused any action that would cause my back to be misaligned which would restrict my spinal fluid to not flow properly. Unfortunately I have never been able to find a doctor that practices this same type of treatment or medicine even though I have tried and visited doctors who claim to provide this type of treatment but were lying.

Since then I have been trying every medication that comes out and to no avail. The only thing that helps is fiorcet. I have found that a combination of calcium and magnesium helps and a new doctor has me taking 500 mg of B-2 everyday which has really helped. My headaches have now decreased in severity and occurrences due to the B-2.

To be continued.

A Day to Rember and Forget

Okay well the day started out okay but got worse as the clouds rolled in, FedEx didn't show when they were supposed to wtih my laptop, my headache got more intense, and I was not able to leave since I was waiting for FedEx. It got better when my husband called me with job information that just might get me a job soon. Can't say much about it for couple of reasons, one I don't want to jinx it and other is that it sort of involves my husband.
Twitter has been cool today. We might lose a very special person, Holly since she is having problems with fakers posting twitter and websites as her. She is celeb and desires her privacy to a point. I got my blog page started and this will be my first post here. I have put some chicken on the BBQ and it started to burn so not sure how good dinner will be. Why is it that companies say things and promise things and do not care if they deliver and follow through on their promises or honor their word. My Dad once said that your word is not only your reputation but it is your honor and if you do not keep your word you loose your honor and therefore you loose your soul. I miss my Dad, I think he would have had a lot of fun with the internet and things like twitter.
Just went out to check on the chicken and it is raining. Look out world a migraine is close behind.
Well, I pulled off the burned skin from the chicken and hopefully it will be okay. Today is Friday and so all day Tivo has been recording Nascar and there is a race tonight at 5pm so I will be on the computer in the living room most of the time. Don't really care about Nascar anymore and that might have upset my Da but I think he would understand.
These posts are going to be very random and some may be long and some may be short and I may post more than one a day. We will see. The blue clouds have been thick today and the rain is more than on the outside. I can hardly wait for summer and the heat and the sun and the blue skys.